I will admit that my life has felt like a moebius strip more than once. Same problems, same job, success followed by monumental failure. Et cetera, et cetera. I am in a video game, and someone continues to hit the reset button more or less.

But anyway sorry for the lack of updates. You should really be used to it by now though. Thought that picture of my cat was cute so I posted it for ja'll enjoyment, please note my exceptionally clever caption. I will likely remove it next time I post another entry, so if you like it you should download it. Also I still plan on changing the look of my crappy website, I just have no felt like doing it.

So things have not been going errr..... yeah. Well on the plus side of things I have recently gotten over a long stretch of being sick, no I am sick, but I mean like chest congestion sick. Also the felines have no been bothering me allergy wise. Took claritan, which I thought was doing good, then zrytec was highly recommend so I tried that, not as good. Went back on claritan, works fine. Even lets me drink beer without the sniffles.

So I have been thrown under the bus as of late, well pretty much standard procedure really but it still hurts. Also my ex wife apparently is doing even worse than I am. I had thought it best if we didnt contact each other anymore, however we started exchanging e-mail infrequently after her brother died. On one of these e-mails so decided to go on some mad tirade of scorn and debasement on my ass. Quite out of the blue, apparently her current husband had had enough of her. As she was talking about everything that she was mad about with me in the past, and everything that her current husband was doing to make her mad and upset, a flood of memories came back. And I totally understood what was happening between them. It wasnt easy letting go, I wasnt the one who wanted a divorce. And it took a few years before I fully got over it, but I used to blame myself for the majority of everything that had ever gone wrong between us. But now I don't, so there goes a little bit of latent guilt. And there was also a tinge of satisfaction as the same thing that she did to me, was happening to her. Sure, its not noble or honorable or anything but im just being honest. Course id rather not see her suffer, but it is what it is.

So once again talking about time travel. It was one of the theme in Donnie Darko, a movie lent to me over a year ago. A movie that I truly had no desire to watch on account of its stupid name. Much to the chagrin of its lender. Well after the 3rd female in as many weeks went off on me at least this time for a more logical reason I agreed to watch the movie in exchange for her watching dr. horrible. And I must say it's one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. I think the last time I was as interested in what was happening was when I watched No country for old men. Don't really know how to describe the movie, it's bizarre. There are comedic, dramatic and mystery elements. But it all works, it works really well. I even liked the camera work. I'll just say if you like movies that are interesting, and a little offbeat in a "rushmore" kind of way I highly recommend it. Sorry Danielle lol.

09/23/08: Here kitty kitty

I am someone who likes animals, regardless of how I can at time disassociate myself from the emotional attachments to them. Having in the past been a bird, fish, turtle, dog, cat, rodent owner. These animals however have either passed away or been passed on to others. Seems I'm a pet owner once again.

My boss had unintentionally adopted a stray cat, which had a litter of kittens. Eight or nine kitties as I remember it, however when I went to see them they were down to four. I had been thinking about getting a cockatiel, so I was in the market for a pet. My allergies however made me wary or getting a dog, or especially a cat which tend to be worse for me. I had decided to stay over for a good half hour, to see if I would have bad reactions to the felines. I was reacting, however it wasn't terrible, and I couldn't tell if it was from the smoke or the cats. Two of them looked almost identical, a more regal shorter haired black/gray/striped kind of looking kitties. One was slightly lighter than the other. The other two were fuzzier, and had more interesting coloring. One was black and white, the top half being black ending at his snout. His underbelly was white, his legs were white and black, however the black areas were not uniform, kind of like a cow. The most interesting one looked just like the black one in terms of fuzzies, however his colors were a mixture of orange, gray, black and white. His face especially half being orange and half black kind of like gizmo from gremlins was beyond adorable. The rest of his coloring blotches were equally random. I had not decided whether I would take any, and If I did whether I would take one or two. Watching them play solidified my decision in that I would take two if I took any. Well I was torn, I knew they were gonna affect my health negatively, but they were just so darn cute. I decided to flip a coin, the first try hit the mama cat and rolled under the couch, so I decided not to count that one, the second flip was heads. So since I had long since lost all faith in my decision making process so I figure relying on a fifty fifty chance would result in me making the right decision at least once in a while. Whether or not taking the cats was the right decision remains to be seen however.

I took those fuzzy babies, six week old kittens. I had brought a box with a blanket in it as a means for transportation. Even though I had folded the flaps in such a way as to stay closed this proved to be painfully insufficient. The kitties kept getting out of the box, climbing all over me while im driving, their claws, and their meowing. I stopped a couple times to put them back in the box, one time I put a magazine over the small opening, it was no use. They kept clawing, going down by the pedals, I was worried about squishing them, I can't imagine was the drivers who would stop next to me were thinking, it must have looked like I was being strangled by ferrets at times. I stopped to go to the grocery stores to get some cat necessities. Kitty litter, litter box, kitty food. When I got back to my car I found them both out of the box again and sitting snuggling each other on the drivers seat. Putting them back in the box once again, this time putting my gym bag on top which must have weight about 5 pounds at least. Once again they got out, I gave up trying to keep them in there. I was almost home anyway.

I was impressed how quickly they adjusted, they knew to use the litter box right away, they were able to eat, and play. Now they follow me are everywhere. Now to say that the allergies were absolutely destroying me would be an exaggeration, but not by much. I've gotten myself some claritin and primatene mist which seems to take the edge off. I'm hoping this were get better, if I doesn't I may not be able to keep them. Its been a few days, and I am starting to get attached but I could still give them up if I had to. I named the black one Crow, and the pied/calico/multicolored one Servo after the robots on MST3K. I will post some pictures once I take some, my camera needs batteries. However I did post a video of them on my youtube channel which you can check out if you want. They are cute, and I hope the pro's of this, outweigh the con's.

BTW I realize this color scheme is hard to read..
Ima tweak it later.

09/07/08: Back once again

Well, if your one of the few people that visit this sight, you might be saying to yourself "Holy fucking shit! An update?". Yes, an update. Sort of anyway. I didn't really like the way my site looked anymore, and as if not feeling like updating wasn't bad enough I wasn't gonna encourage it by updating a fugly web site. Now I don't especially like the way the sight looks now either, it's little more than a slight reworking of the last one layout and design, but that's fine. To me its a small improvement, and I don't plan on changing much if anything else. The menu is even more simplistic. You have the blog/update/home button. All of these will be posted where you are reading now. You have the youtube button which simply links you to my youtube channel which is the extension and sister site of dimipapa.com. You have the videos button which is where you can go to get down loadable versions of all my music videos including some no longer available on my youtube channel. Lastly, and certainly least you have the contact button which is nothing more than my e-mail address and a few other methods of contacting me. Seeing as no one has sent me an e-mail since I started dimipapa.com I doubt this section is even necessary. But just in case there is a linking error or something I'd like you to have the ability to contact me. The site is more bare bones than it was before, this serves the purpose of making it easier to update, easier to navigate, and to stay focused on the few things anyone visiting this site might actually give half a damn about. If you want to visit the old site I will keep it available. There are some image galleries, videos descriptions and viewing windows and links to some of my favorite websites still accessible there. It will stay up, but I don't plan to update it, or incorporate any of those features into the new layout. You can view the old site here http://www.dimipapa.com/dimipapasite.html. The only updates besides the appearance and this entry is that three additional videos are finally available for download in the videos section. I am working on a secret series of videos, that are not music videos. Over the course of a few months I may begin to release them here. I am also working on a new music video. My youtube channel also has many new video blogs which I will not be posting on my web site. In the future in order to cross promote my channel and website I will begin to keep more things exclusive to one or the other, or at least timed exclusives. So, I will likely be updating at least once a week now. Geisou.